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Monday, August 6th, 2007
7:33 pm - Holy Crap
Holy crap, I'm moving to California for law school. I'll be going to UC Davis next year, so everybody come visit! I especially expect all you Seattle people to show up at some point.

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Tuesday, April 10th, 2007
9:35 pm
I wish things would just stand still for two moments so I could take a breath without all things pushing past me. I'm absolutely terrified of tomorrow because tomorrow hooks into every day afterward, and they'll all fall together behind me too fast before I can look at it twice. It's like those dreams I have where one of my teeth fall out and then all the others follow and crumble out into my hands like in a chain.

So I'm going to Europe and my family plan on packing up a caravan and moving to Florida while I'm away. When I come back they want me to go straight to Florida, but Dragan will still be in Ohio and then he's going to Berkeley. I'll have about 2 to 3 weeks after I get back to start arranging things for school again and I definitely don't want to stay here. But maybe nobody will accept me and I'll be stuck here, which would be doubly depressing. If I divide time between Dragan and my family, I'll probably end up with 1 and a half weeks for each of them or less, which isn't even fractionally sufficient for either. And if I can't transfer somewhere close by on the West Coast then I won't see him much at all. Ever. Maybe not ever, but not for a long time.

I hate being pulled around in all directions like this. I've always felt a bit untethered, and now I feel like I'm losing all centrifugal force completely. I can't think of anything I'd like more than to drop root someplace quiet by the sea and not leave or want to leave or think about leaving for a while.

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Friday, March 23rd, 2007
12:42 am
Ack. The second I hit the pavement swooping into second semester, the time just shot by. Where's it all gone? I'm working on my final writing assignment of the year, due in a little over a week. It's a pretty amusing case about this farmer named Rubeus Hagrid who owns a dairy farm with a 1 million gallon manure lagoon that his neighbor, Sybil Trelawney, isn't too happy about because of the smell.

Sometimes I think my mind's a bit of a manure lagoon.

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Tuesday, March 6th, 2007
1:41 pm - Yay
I had a CT Scan performed today and found out that my tailbone isn't broken - my bone just looked like it was fractured on the X-ray because it has some quirky look of its own where the fusion of the bone seemed like a crack.

Thanks to everyone who left well wishes for my ass. <3

I won't be a Tiny Tim after all.

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Monday, March 5th, 2007
6:40 pm
Okay, I officially cracked my tailbone. And they did unspeakable things to me. And I didn't get an ass doughnut cushion out of it.

current mood: cranky

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10:59 am
I fell down the stairs yesterday and suspect that I broke my ass bone. I'm really waddly and pathetic today. I'm going to see the doctor later, and it looks like I might have to get this done:

Propects look grim. I'll probably also have to use a butt doughnut, which, as fun as it sounds, might look a bit strange.

current mood: melancholy

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Monday, February 26th, 2007
9:36 am
My dear Dragan is going to Berkeley for his doctorate degree. I'm a pretty happy girl about it.

I feel like a porn librarian today. I put on this dress of mine and realized I left my contacts at my house in the 'burbs, so I wore my glasses and now I feel like I should take out my ponytail and shake my hair out in a dramatic manner.

I'm all full of nervous energy. I'm debating that we should force feed Saddam Hussein in international law today. My partner plans on giving his portion of the presentation facing the wall. I plan on vomiting on his shoes.

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Wednesday, February 14th, 2007
8:15 pm - Best Valentine's snow day ever
There are two vomitous feet of snow piled up on the sidewalk below my window.

Thankfully I had a snow day and stayed home from school, so I slept until what felt like the ungodly hour of 9AM and then reversed all the good work I did this morning in yoga by eating the contents of my refrigerator.

Jen called me earlier today. She seems happy in North Carolina. I wish I had a boho life like her. Instead, I chose something that feels like I'm being prematurely forced into adulthood. I'm not ready for it. Can't I just read books all day and cook and wear some shitty looking muumuu around the house? That's all I want.

Law school's been a perpetual drain on my self esteem. I'm not naturally good at this -which isn't such new of an idea, but my hard work doesn't usually pay off- and that feeling's new to me. Maybe I've spoken too soon and I just haven't worked quite hard enough yet. I think I'm pretty happy otherwise. But I also think I'm mildly schizophrenic, so maybe I'm hallucinating about being happy too.

Well, no. Dragan's fabulous and I just signed up to study abroad in Europe this summer and I'm going to New York in less than a month with Mudge. So I guess I'm happy so long as long as I can (1) spend money, and (2) see Dragan.

current mood: lethargic

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Thursday, December 21st, 2006
1:31 am

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Sunday, December 10th, 2006
1:55 am
I finished my first final this morning and then had an Audrey Fest at the end of the night in lieu of studying for criminal law. I watched Sabrina and Roman Holiday back to back and decided that Roman Holiday clearly reigns as the best Audrey Hepburn movie of all time. Somewhat because Gregory Peck is one of the few attractive leading men starring in an Audrey movie, mostly because romantic movies with sad endings have more integrity than happy ones. I'm almost fatally attracted to the idea of leaving things on a high note. I would rather watch two people have a perfect and unforgettable afternoon and never see eachother again than to think of the years ahead of them spent in fraying monotony. Who can think the afternoons and quiet mornings have a limit when they only have one?

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Friday, November 10th, 2006
1:30 am - The expected return
It's officially happened. I'm now 100% fat and sedentary.

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Thursday, November 9th, 2006
10:00 pm - Best day ever
Wow. Rumsfield's gone and the Democrats have control of both houses.

Best day ever.

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Wednesday, October 18th, 2006
11:07 pm - Scaaarf
Damn, I love scarf weather. I love walking home and smelling the damp air with all the leaves crushed in it.


That's me looking scared in a scarf, although I'm actually thrilled about wearing it (musty smell or not).

Law school's going well, I've made TWO new friends, and they're very attentive to my needs for exclusive companionship and crafty pumpkin/Project Runway parties. So for the party tomorrow we're having a fruity booze/dress up in cocktail wear/Project Runway/Halloween cupcake night.

I keep falling asleep in class, I haven't had this problem of mild narcolepsy (other than when driving on numerous occasions) since high school when I was fat and sedentary, which means that I'm slowly regressing and once again becoming fat and sedentary.

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Wednesday, October 11th, 2006
9:10 pm
Saleenas7: Christopher Walken is the man
Saleenas7: *of my dreams

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Tuesday, August 1st, 2006
11:30 pm - Happy Anniversary
Moving out/into new place- check
Financial aid garbage for law school- check
First book purchase for law school- check
Finding more fans for sweltering un air-conditioned apartment that shares a dimension with the streets of Calcutta- uncheck.

Today I celebrated a year with Dragan. Hooray! What a lovely man to spend an afternoon or a year or a few years with.

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Friday, July 14th, 2006
10:38 pm
I was just viewing a friend's facebook entry and he has this distorted looking panda for a user pic, and I asked him what was wrong with the panda's vajojo, and then I laughed. Alot.

I went and met up with some of the Maelstrom kids last night. We have so much fun together. I'm glad we've decided to make these Maelstrom reunions a monthly event, otherwise I would miss seeing them. I blame them for starting this avalanche of vaginal humor that amuses me beyond belief. Or it could be the fact that I just drove 6 hours to Purdue and back with my mother to pick up my sister from Corntucky Indiana (more commonly known as West Lafayette).

Dragan is still gone. Why does he always have to be absent? I miss him a great deal, although I'm very proud of him for catching a fish with his bare hands and for being a rugged and manly Croatian field-scything wild boar flee-er in general. I want to call him tomorrow and tell him how I love and miss him and would like to do bad things to him.

Montreal in 2 days!

Move out in 2 weeks!

Now I go take le nap.

current mood: calm

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Wednesday, July 5th, 2006
9:43 pm
Aaaagh. Somebody save me from a meaningless and boring death and occupy my time somehow. In the pretense of doing something, I lugged out about 15 bags of garbage from the house (my parents are moving to Florida, there's a lot of trash around), two of which were bags full of dried cement, and then I came in and amused myself by eating junk food and pretending to be productive with moving out things.

Maybe I should go do yoga.

Everyone's left me, which is why my social calendar has withered away to nothing. Jen left, my dad left, Dragan left to Croatia- which leaves me with exactly two friends, one of which has a full time boyfriend and the other who works the night shift.

Oh well, only about 10 days until I hightail it to Montreal. And then when I get back Dragan will be here. Hooray.

Baron Baptiste, you lisping Californian beefcake gumby, here I come.

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Wednesday, June 14th, 2006
8:11 pm
mTb 0 5 2: we booked the flight
draganTI86: ok
draganTI86: I will tell dragan
draganTI86: is this the lovely monica?
mTb 0 5 2: it is
draganTI86: oh hooray
draganTI86: I like you
mTb 0 5 2: who am i speaking with?
mTb 0 5 2: selina????????/
draganTI86: this is his slightly drunk
draganTI86: yes
draganTI86: that's it

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9:50 am - Yay!
You Passed 8th Grade Geography

Congratulations, you got 7/10 correct!

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Monday, June 5th, 2006
1:50 pm
Chris proposed to Jen in North Carolina and they're getting married next summer!

I can't believe I'll know real live married people other than my parents. This is insane. I am ridiculously happy for them.

So I'm just back from Dragan's. It was a lovely time, we spent most of it yelling at eachother in bad Italian accents and scaring the neighbors, and then I made a bunch of tiramisu and used up an entire carton of eggs because I thought I screwed up, but I didn't so I ended up using all of the mixture that I made and we had 2 giant tiramisus to eat, and of course we refused the share with anyone. And I had to whisk the egg whites into stiff foamy peaks by hand, and I did it three times, so I was forced to take a nap out of sheer exhaustion when I finished making the stuff.

And then I played corn hole, a southern Ohio game that's not as hickish as it sounds, although I suppose now I'm a bonafide hick for having played it. It's like bocci ball but with holes and bags filled with corn (and not beans as I formerly thought). It was pretty fun, although I'm awful at it and kept throwing the bags way off target under a trailer so that Jimmy and Dragan had to dive under it and fetch them. Dragan's only played once or twice, but he's a natural at it (like he is with most things- bastard), and I could tell Jimmy's family felt sorry for me because his mom kept telling them to move the targets closer to me.

Anyway, if anyone has a corn hole set and wants to play a round, let me know.

Oh yeah! I'm also moving out. I just signed a lease on a sweet furnished apartment last week.

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